Rubbish!!

I'm not too good at this weekly blog thing am I? I promise to try harder. So what's been going on in the world of Victoria Hudson. This is mostly going to be rambling by the way.

Well my daughter hid my debit card for 5 days so that was fun. Saved me some money though. I've booked a camping trip with my mum, three brothers and my two kids. I've had a business meeting which was both exciting and terrifying at the same time (no I'm not giving details just yet). I've been happy and I've been low. I've been very low.

I really have struggled at times and have found myself crying in the kitchen when my daughter spat juice all over my clean clothes. It was the last straw. I almost booked a flight and went abroad by myself until I realised that my name needs changing on my passport. I was leaving the kids with my husband, I wasn't going to just abandon them. Instead I talked to my husband and he has offered to send me to a Spa for a weekend when he gets back from America (how lucky am I). After our chat and a bit more crying I felt much better. It really is good to talk (and cry) sometimes. Just let out all the emotion. I've been much more productive since then and I need to remember that the next time I feel low. And so should all of you. Don't suffer quietly, talk to someone. Anyone. To a friend, to a specialist service, to family, to me. Anyone. Or write it down. Blog it, diary it, write it on your walls if it makes you feel better. Just let it out. You will feel better.

Well that didn't go the way I expected but it's an important lesson to learn. I hope you are all well and taking good care of yourselves.

Much Love

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